that in the eyes of everyone here in bulgaria who has ever known my mother, i AM her.
they say that i talk the same way, walk the same way, have the same body structure, all the same facial and personality characteristics.
i can't think of a greater compliment. i've never known her. i've never missed her either, because i don't think its possible to miss someone who'se passed away when you were 1 yr. old. but i miss knowing her. i think that i've missed out on a great person, not only because she was my mother but because whe really was great. the things people say about her make me feel guilty because i don't know if i could ever live up to that goodness and greatness of a heart. the compliments for me are both encouraging and diturbing.
but overall i'm glad because i'm the only thing left from her. i have my self as a gift from her. i was her "love child," born to her when she was 40 with great love...i don't know, i'm grateful she wanted me so much,,....it really means something when i think about it. my dad, her 2nd husband, was her first love, and she wanted to leave something behind from this great love, which was me. thank you.