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Mon, Mar. 8th, 2004, 05:03 pm
life explained

So according to numerology, the number of my fate is 8. This means that my soul, chosing its current life that its living, has decided to experience many more difficulties than is needed in order to achieve a really big advancement in reincarnation......because the more difficulties experienced and survived, the more opportunities has my soul to advance closer to the divine. Obviously, before i came to this world, I've had much more faith in my strength than I do now,.....not sure that if i now had to make a choice what life to live, i'd make the same one.....anyway, that's the deal with numerology......
But true or not, the difficulties are not holding back.....This year has started absolutelly awfully, from the very new year's night until now......before i used to read the beatnik litterature, and now i'm living it. Funny, several years ago i used to dream and wonder what its like, to have no money, no responsibilities, no home to live in, to constantly move from place to place, from friend's house to friends' house, to drag through the streets hungry, to eat a little bit once a day, if even....and the only refuge to be the books and the music....well, damnit, i lived just like that for a month....and the other month and a half not much better.....things are finally starting to reorganize a bit, and i'm wondering and asking myself what was the need of all that....did i really succed in making a quantum leap in my conscience, or did i waste my chance....did my soul really use the opportunity? I can't complain about the things that have happened, the least i can say that i enjoyed it. The question is what i'm going to be able to make of myself while the things have not yet settled down...now's the time

Fri, Mar. 12th, 2004 02:57 pm (UTC)

I'm glad you've been enjoying the experience. I can safely say, that now that I have Cara, I do not romanticize that lifestyle any longer, well, not formyself anyway. I'd like to hear your stories. The other person in my life who rarely eats and floats around is apparently in jail again. I told him not to contact me, but I do miss him. That may be the only time I've admitted to missing him in the last four and a half months. I miss you as well my dear. I long to go see you. Let's meet in Prauge. You must see Cara, because you don't get the least of the life in her eye's and her smile from pictures. Any chance of your coming to California in the forseeable future? Have I guessed correctly that you're not in school there? Is there anything I can do for you? Here is a big hug. Please, where it with you always.

Wed, Mar. 17th, 2004 04:26 pm (UTC)
bsnchic: i'm coming!!!!

my dearest love......i'm still in school, but there is a chanse that i may be coming back home, to california as soon as in the next two months.....yes yes yes....coming back!!!! i will write to you soon when i find out the details for my arrival........i will not be coming with the help of my uncle, but everything will be wonderfull....i love you and baby Cara!

Sat, Apr. 3rd, 2004 08:40 am (UTC)

hehehe! I think I must have found you thru a common link. It is always worth while. I have moved up the hippydom a tad now. Don't regret any of it, past, present or future! But did stop taking the drugs - bigger things happen without them!

Mon, Jul. 26th, 2004 05:31 pm (UTC)
great_dame: Surfer

Cool LJ - thanks for the read!

-Autumn May-