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Tue, Jul. 16th, 2002, 06:53 pm
the most increadible things is

that in the eyes of everyone here in bulgaria who has ever known my mother, i AM her.
they say that i talk the same way, walk the same way, have the same body structure, all the same facial and personality characteristics.

i can't think of a greater compliment. i've never known her. i've never missed her either, because i don't think its possible to miss someone who'se passed away when you were 1 yr. old. but i miss knowing her. i think that i've missed out on a great person, not only because she was my mother but because whe really was great. the things people say about her make me feel guilty because i don't know if i could ever live up to that goodness and greatness of a heart. the compliments for me are both encouraging and diturbing.
but overall i'm glad because i'm the only thing left from her. i have my self as a gift from her. i was her "love child," born to her when she was 40 with great love...i don't know, i'm grateful she wanted me so much,,....it really means something when i think about it. my dad, her 2nd husband, was her first love, and she wanted to leave something behind from this great love, which was me. thank you.

Tue, Jul. 16th, 2002 11:19 am (UTC)
(Anonymous): hello sexy

Hi sweetheart did you get my e-mail, I couldnt remember if I gave it to you or not but cant write long so PR1ZMCLASH