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Wed, Oct. 2nd, 2002, 04:52 pm
silence is also bliss

let me talk
but please don't make me listen
because, i admit, i don't have the strength to deal with what you are about to tell me
even if its not that horrible
even if there is no power in what you say
it will seem so to me
whatever it is you say
i will be scared
because it seems like a big deal to me
because i blow it out of proportion
because i cant let go
so then the problem comes down entirely to me
so give me silence

Thu, Oct. 3rd, 2002 01:30 pm (UTC)

is it the silence or forced ignorance? knowing and breathing in beauty into the truth is easier. keep your chin up, or down if that'sa how you feel, please don't compromise yourself.
(i have sent you an email.)

Tue, Jan. 7th, 2003 08:11 pm (UTC)

Leyna and I, since we've been in oc for christmas, have been talking to your friends from hs. we have been collecting money in your name. now, this money may be available to you if you want it for a plane ticket to cali... but our intention has been to purchase you a bassoon. i can feel how much you miss music, and know that if you returned here you may be able to redeem that scholarship if you owned a bassoon. so this is your gift from all of us to you. i had hoped to bring it to you this summer, but it looks like i may not be able to make that trip. just say the word tho, and i'll drop everything for you. we have not yet fiinnished collecting money, and may continue for sometime in the future. if you think you will be staying there for some time, i will ship or bring it to you... providing you give me an address. i have heard a rumor that you are not curently living at your fathers...that he knows not where you be. tho my first reaction to this news was a pang of worry, i am excited for your adventure, and with you all along the way. i long to be told your stories, and to share mine as well.